Poor Russian Dolls.

I got hair extensions (what do you think?), and I was thinking afterwards about the poor little girls who cut off their long beautiful hair to sell it, it gets processed and then sold to girls like me.

Ha. You never really realise how lucky you are do you?

(heres what my old hair looked like....)

These pics aren't the most flattering, I wasn't planning on putting them up here, so I wasn't too worried about smiling, but now I regret it!

I am happy today.
I'm learning to love myself as an individual again. Not as someone's counterpart.

Love lots.
SMile XO

one too many...

There's nothing better than healing the heart with some delicious cookie dough Ben and Jerry's. I watched a trillion films, bought lots of clothes online, i worked and got drunk after, i screamed when i got mad, i laughed when something was funny, and i hugged my friend who comforted me. Overall, everything you need after a break up.

So today is a new day, the start of a new week, and the start of a new chapter in my life.

I booked a flight to Scotland to see my best friend in Aberdeen. Whilst it doesnt exactly sound like the craziest place, every second spent with S is hilarious. I can't wait to see her, it's been toooo long.

I'm going to LDN (london) tomorrow with my pal, should be fun, however i'm slowly rinsing all my summer saving and i'm only on week 2 out of 17. Going to have to get some more work shifts if i plan on maintaining this horrendous (but beautiful) shopping habit.

Last week was a sad week, the passing of the two Icons, Charlies Angels beauty, Farrah Fawcett and King of Pop, Michael Jackson, were both extremely upsetting for many. My thoughts are with their families. R.I.P. x

My new obssession is ice cream and ice pops. I had these delicious mango smoothie ice lollies and they were theeee best! they nearly beat nobbly bobbly's in the taste stakes. However Cookie Dough remains my number one is the ice cream tub charts. haha.

I also started to DIY my blazer jacket, putting studs onto the lapels (is that what they are called? :S ) however its proving to be tricky, and takes ages! OH AND i broke two nails doing it, which is rather annoying!

It's so hot in England (well my part anyway) right now, i'm sitting in my room with my fan on as its just too hot outside! Listening to a bit of George Michael, how brilliant.

Love to you all.

SMILE. XO

(image from here)

HEARTBREAK hotel.

I could survive before him, so I can survive after him.

why do we feel we NEED a man in our lives to make us complete?

numb. together for nearly a year, only one little break up in between, this time its for good.

we're both going to uni this year, he's off on a boys holiday this summer. its for the best.

now i feel like i'm a changed person, not the same girl i was before, and not for the better.

i don't mean that in a nasty way, just an 'i'm gonna get over it in the end' way.

uni is a huge weight on my shoulders right now, i can't get it off of my mind. drilling like a massive hole in my brain.

other than that, i've finished college forever now, have three months off until uni in september (which right now, i have no idea where i'm going).

i'm gonna be doing some work at my step fathers businesses for the summer, saving some money for uni. even though i will probably blow it on clothes.

anyway, i'm out.
smile peoples. i'm trying. xx

(photo via flickr)

PENY LANE.

Some easy to recreate at home looks.

Delicious. via Bebelicious via Peny Lane.

smile. xo

foot gloves.

So after my long blogging absence (due to laptop breakage + VERY heavy exam load), I thought I'd browse some bloggy blogs, catch up... And on Daily Style Guide, theres a very brilliant post about all the Sales that are on right now, and to my joy, OFFICE have a very lovely one on.

Heres some of the shoes that I found that made me smile, aswell as it for my credit card, however I'm on no shopping spree.

Nudes:


Browns:

Blacks:

So what do you think of my choices? I could do with each and every pair in my wardrobe. Dammit why oh why cannot I not be like a star who gets sent countless pairs of shoes a day.

SMILE :) XO

ICE CREAM & slumdogs.

So.... once upon a time there was a young girl, she was happy, and bright and had AMAZING fashion sense (joke), she had one problem however, her tonsils hated her.
Whilst growing up there would be days where her tonsils were riddled with bacteria (how gross).

The moral of the story, yesterday was one of those days for me.

I was completely disabled, I couldn't talk, walk, eat and when I woke up I couldn't breathe. It was horrid. All because of two little lumps at the back of my throat. What are the point of tonsils anyway if you can have them removed??!?!!?!?!?!

POINTLESS!!!

My main problem was the lack of food, all I could manage was a milkshake, my mum made sure it was the most fattening one she could find I think. And when I have a lack of food, I get grotty... very grotty, and because I was ill, I was just so weak.

Watched Slumdog Millionaire. It was good. I still think The Curious Case of Benjamin Button was better though.

Felt a little bit better today and ventured out in my Mummys new car (its a convertible!!!) to Starbucks. I have never savoured a frappacino so much!

This is pretty much an exact version of the outfit I wore today, the only thing different is the bag and love ring!

Shorts & Jumper- Topshop. Sandals & Bag- Miss Selfridge. Belt- Dorothy Perkins. Wishbone necklace- Vintage. Love ring- farfetch.com (my version is from Accessorize)....

When I showered, did my hair and make up, then got dressed this morning, after yesterdays 'hideously ill' look, I felt like I had just stolen my mojo back from evil Dr (errr) Evil.....
Ooooo and I won a leopard print top off ebay today. I should so stop with the leopard print, I know its so wrong, but I just love it. Oh well, we all have our flaws....

SMILE XO

My achy breaky heart.

I think that this quote (from here) sadly describes my life right now.
You know when you have that gut instinct, and the saddest thing is you know that its hurting you more to stay where you are than it would to leave?

Feelings right now: alone, used, taken for granted, unhappy, stressed, upset, under-pressure.

I honestly don't need this right now at this time, I'm doing the most important exams in my life and a guy is making me go nuts. This isn't right. Who said my life should be ruled around a man?

Whatever you do, keep smiling. I'm trying. XO

My Ladybug...

I watched Sex and the City again today, and fell in love again, with all the wonderful clothes. I have particularly started obsessing over studded belts, like the one that Carrie wears like all the time through out the movie. So anyway I started my hunt and this is what I found....

I thought how perfect would all these belts go with this beautiful dress from brownsfashion.com at only £160....

My fave belt there is the one in the bottom left corner, black suede studded belt from ASOS, only £15. Can't wait till I get some money so I can go on a shop shop shoppy spree. (I'm going to label this as a holiday investment- I said I would not spend anymore money now unless its for holiday....)

For now my friends, I sleep. Happy dreams about everything beautiful.

SMILE XO

P.S I'm smiling, lots.

I got given my mums car today! She got a new one, so I now own her old one. Which isn't a bad thing. It's a beauty, a little red peugeot 306. I'm calling her Ladybug. XO

Love. With a hitch.

Hello, thought I had abandoned you ey? Well I'm really sorry for the lack of love but I've been being a really good girl revising and what not for these extremely important exams coming up. So please, I beg, forgive me :)
Well I haven't got much today apart from this hilarious set of illustrations entitled 'I love you but..' I selected a few of my fave to show you, but to view the whole picture book go HERE.

'I love you but...' is a hilarious project by Alex Holder and Ross Neil, who made this picture book about the moment in a relationshop where you realise you don't love someone completely, because there is one little thing that keeps bothering you. When it bothers you so much it actually makes you physically cringe, you know it's time to say; 'I love you but...'.

Have you ever had a love like that? Whats the funniest excuse you've ever given for a break up?

I once went out with a guy who was so infatuated with history (particularly the Tudors) that he would never stop going on about it. When it came to breaking up, the words 'obsession' and 'unhealthy' popped up....

Anywho, Shakespeare is calling me, TO BE OR NOT TO BE, THAT IS THE QUESTION.

Wish me luck with my horrendous exam tomorrow (believe me I need it, failing is the only option right now.).... Fail to prepare, prepare to fail and all that jazz.

SMILE XO

Men

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"Men aren’t stupid,

and you don’t need a complicated set of rules to find a good one who loves you.

Here’s the only rule you need:

if a man loves you, he will do anything he can to keep you around.

Anything."

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Quote found here

Sorry.

I am so sorry that I have been so incredbly lame and not posted for a few days, it has been very hectic for me....

-weds: a spot of shopping early AM, then revision all day at the LRC (college library), and then BRITNEY (who was fab-even though she didn't sing live)

-thurs: Revision all day at the LRC, then out with a gal pal for a few drinks

-fri: Revision all day at the LRC, then work in the evening.

-plans for today: to update you lovelies with some happy happenings (such as my new purchases), revise some more (I'm retaking an exam on World War I literature, it's truely fascinating), see the friendboy and then work again tonight. Tomorrow no doubt will probably just be all revision. BOOOOOO.

Right now I'm just looking at car insurance and BLOOODY BLIMEY! It's so expensive, I currently pay a ridiculous amount a month, but once I have my own car I will be paying an even more ridiculous amount, which quite frankly I cannot afford.

Oh isn't life even more interesting when you don't have a lot of money.

Well anyways, I shall be uploading some pics of my crapola cam later and shall post them for you, if you don't read this post then I do not blame you- a post with out pics, how dull of me.

SMILE :)

DID I MENTION??

I'm going to see BRITNEY tomorrow night!!!!!

OH yes, the legend that is Ms Spears is coming to town with the Circus, and I'm going to be right there in the ring with two of my best gal pals Jaz & Luce. SO EXCITED!!!

I've checked the set list and she does some A-M-A-Z-I-N-G songs, lets hope she doesn't lipsync everrrryyyy single one. (Well here's to hoping!)

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"Lets turn this dance floor into our own little nasty world!

Boys! Sometimes a girl just needs one,

Boys! To love her and to hold.

Boys! When a girl is with oneeee,

Then she's in control!"

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Whack on some Britney tunes and have a party in your bedroom my friends! Britney was my childhood idol (thats why my muma got me these tickets for my 18th birthday- to remind me of that little girl still inside), I hope she lives upto the expectation :)

SMILE [Its INFECTIOUSSSSS] -(I am, I'm oh so excited!) XO

[pics of Britney found here]

YUM. look what I made.

I hate cooking, but when my mum gave me the recipe for her delicious (and locally famous- amongst my friends and family anyway)Peanut Butter Choc Chip cookies, I couldn't resist! What better idea than to learn to make something so homely and delicious that I could do when I go to uni. Remind me of home in a good way...

Top pic, my cool old scales (I'm fully aware that they are not cool, just old). Mid baking. End product. YUM YUM YUM. They didn't last very long at all! (And by the way I didnt just make 6, I made about 20 haha.)

So how was your day? I did a hardcore 7 hour revision session in the Library at my college, it was tiring and boring, but it'll be worth it in the end.

Eurgh and tonight was really boring aswell. J (la friendboy) went back to his place in Oxford for a few days on Sunday night until Thursday, its normally the second or third day that he's away that it hits me, and ta-dah, like clockwork I'm missing him today. So it was dinner for one tonight, and seeing as (like I've already said) I hate cooking, I just has some delish Chicken Soup [WHICH IS GOOD FOR THE SOUL] with some crusty yummy bread. I hope that isn't too calorific! Moving on to....

....Me toning up. Myself and J are going on holiday! To Spain for a week. It's quite last minute we're going in three weeks time and it should be pretty fab, it's going to be our first holiday away together and I can't wait. However this does me a lot of clothes have to be bought and getting slim. We're going to his apartment in Spain, and the thing is, his friend and girlfriend live out there.

The problem: She's an ex UNDERWEAR MODEL.

That can only mean one thing, I either don't go, or I tone up and match (in my mind) her assests etc.... So here comes healthy eating/ living plan. Walking more places (I walked a journey I'd normally get the bus today), eating less and only when I'm hungry, eating healthy when I am hungry/ I need to make a thin-spiration board (OK DEF NOT one of those weird anorexia ones where all the people on it have bones sticking out, just healthy toned women on mine, thank you very much!) Anyway just thinking about being shown up by the side of the pool by a cool 20 year old something just makes me lose my appetite so hey, I should just keep thinking that and I'll be slim in noooo time!!

SMILE :) XO

on my wish list....

...To have an outfit which looks as perfect and chic on me as it does on Kate Bosworth ♥

[Image from the fabulous Alice in Wardrobe Wonderland]